Have I mentioned that I watched The Great on Hulu and loved it? It was lovely, funny, vulgar, bloody, pretty, and historically inaccurate (although kind of accurate, they were just very loose with their accuracy). Now, “Huzzah!” feels like an exclamation I need to make with frequency. So I shall.

I filmed today! I got two done, and I have discovered that I need to outline, not to write full-on scripty scripts, because I did not get to put to use all of my neatly laid scripted words. Bah, but it was a good learning experience. I didn’t film the third script because there are still things I need to verify in it so I know I’m saying true things. I think they’re true, but I need to verify, and that means opening books once I get back home. I can do it!

Honestly, it feels good to have a couple things to work on before the guilt hits that usually motivates me. We’ll see how the process goes this week, if I’m able to keep it up, or if I produce more, or less. Right now I wish I had another script ready, but maybe I’ll work on scripts while I wait for the rest of my laundry to do, and that’ll be productive.

The rest of the day is pretty usual. Laundry happens, and then I go home and unload the laundry, and then I hopefully clean things around the house so I can have a place to film that I’m not embarrassed about.

I’m watching a Twitch stream right now with someone talking about their day job, and how they don’t know how much they’re going to do that because doing YouTube full time would be fun. Is it weird that right now I’m thinking, this YouTube thing is really fun and I’d love for it to help fulfill some of my Start Today dreams, but I think I’d keep a day job. It feels like a weird thing for me to say, because I have been pretty firm in my attitude and desire to someday work for myself. But I can see having a job and doing this in my evenings and weekends, maybe. Maybe it’s just a mood, though, and that feeling will pass. 🙂

Not much else for now! I hope you’re having a great day!

And if you’re not having a great day, I hope you’re having a good day!

And if you’re not having a good day, I hope tomorrow is better.


What things are falling by the wayside


I’ve been half-assing my journaling since about the time I finished my last personal journal. It’s okay, of course, to not write 3-8 pages every day, of course, but there’s a lot of stuff going on and writing it down helps me process, and I haven’t been doing that. When I felt anxious this morning, I quickly went ahead and got at least one of them done (my Start Today journal), and felt better having done at least my gratitudes.


While I’ve been writing out scripts for videos, I haven’t been filming them. I’ve harped on this for practically ever day this week. I’ll stop now.

Keeping up with schoolwork

I don’t have schoolwork, but my kids have schoolwork, and just when I think they’re getting everything done without my helicopter ways, it turns out, not so much. Thankfully, the last day of new teaching in our school district is today, and the last day for makeup work is next Friday, so my work there is almost done.

Grocery Shopping

I am not saying I haven’t been getting groceries, just that I used to have a schedule, man, and the stay-at-home order has messed with that. I shouldn’t complain, because I can still buy groceries, and I am grateful for that. Well, anyway.


I haven’t been reading. I’m sad about this. After watching Starship Troopers last night, I declared I wanted to read the book. We have the book, and Elder Youth has read the book, so I feel like it’s time for me to read the book. But then this morning instead of waking early and doing that kind of thing, I slept, because…I slept because I was so focused on doing a thing a particular way, I forgot about all the other things that I could have been doing.

Aaaand that’s probably enough self-flagellation for now. There’s a bird who is trying to eat me alive, and it tickles.

I’m pleased with my streak

I’m pleased with the length of the streak that I’ve been able to maintain, and so I may, at some point soon, stop focusing on keeping it going. That’s not to say that I will let the streak go, just that it’s a possibility. It was neat to keep it up for a month, and I don’t really have any need to keep it longer than that. So we’ll see. That’s a thing.

I have some alone time today, and I really, really needed it. I’m in a house with my family, whom I love, four cats and a bird, who are all very adorable, but I am an introvert and I am getting much, much, much less alone time than usual. Normally I have time after the kids have gone to bed, but they’re going to bed later and later, and my youngest has started wanting to sleep in the same room as I. It’s not that I want to do anything that shouldn’t be done in the same room as my kid, it’s just that I don’t want to worry about bothering the kid when they should be asleep.

I know, there’s some parenting skills in that paragraph that I need to address. I will, at some point, but it’s difficult. Parenting is hard, probably for everyone, but right now, it feels especially hard for me. I’ll get better at it as things go along.

So anyway. I’m getting my alone time, and it’s super helpful.

Let’s see. What else?

I would like to film today but I don’t have any ideas so that may not happen. I filmed yesterday afternoon, but I’m not sure I’ll use that. I need to re-watch it to make sure I didn’t say anything problematic. I talked about my Day Job a bit and how because of that I’ve been paying a lot more attention to local politics, and I went into some stuff that I know is controversial. I don’t want my channel to be like that, if I can help it, so I may skip that one. We’ll see.

I do plan on doing quite a bit of brainstorming and research for YouTube, though. I’ve already done a lot, and I’ve picked up quite a bit of good stuff. I just want to get everything in one place instead of scattered throughout a journal, which worked fine when I did that, but I’m almost done with that journal and so I’d like to start another.

The rest of the day is up in the air. There’s some paperwork that I need to sign and return, and that’s going to be a big part of this evening and tomorrow. Everything will work out. Just going to do my best and keep moving forward, because that’s all a person can do right now.

Thanks for stopping by! I hope you’re having a great day. 🙂

And if you’re not having a great day, I hope you’re having an okay day.

And if you’re not having an okay day, then I hope tomorrow is better for you.


Oh, the ideas!

I had a very productive night last night! But I also drank some wine (two glasses, reasonable), had some chips and salsa (entirely too much salsa), enjoyed a beer, had more chips, had another beer, and then finished the bottle of salsa I had only opened that day at lunch (waaaay too much salsa!).

So that was a lot of wine, beer, chips, and salsa. But the other things that were happening at the same time as that consumption was excellent.

I watched a veritable shit ton of YouTube videos on How To YouTube (essentially – that wasn’t the literal subject of all of the videos, of course), and I learned.

I learned a lot.

And I got an idea for a video that I’m kind of thrilled about, and even though I’m a Baby Channel right now and don’t have much experience and don’t have any credibility and am still trying to figure things out, I have a great idea and I’m going to film it today.

Because even though I’m a Baby Channel and I don’t have much experience and I don’t have any credibility and I’m still figuring things out, I’m pretty good at consuming information and presenting what I found helpful in a way that may be helpful for other Baby Channels. And even though I’m just starting out (I’ll spare you me typing all that out again, even though I want to), I don’t think what I have have to share is invaluable or even repetitive.

Or maybe it is. But that’s okay! I’ll give you a spoiler. One thing I learned, and that I kind of knew from the get-go, is that I’ve got to just Do The Thing. I have to Do It even though I’m uncomfortable, even though I say “um” seven million times, even though I’m not great at editing (yet), even though I don’t have a big audience.

Do The Thing.

Record the video. Edit the video. Make the thumbnail. Write a title. Create a description. Wait for it to f*ing finish uploading, then wait longer for it to process. Share it when it’s public.




I’m enjoying doing the thing, though, even though uploading is time consuming. I’m enjoying learning about the thing because…well, I’d like to earn money doing this some day, even if it’s not a lot, because (as another creator I watch has mentioned more than a few times, I’m motivated by money. I don’t know that that’s a thing a lot of people admit, but the more I heard someone else say it, the more times I heard myself saying in my head, yeah, me too!


So after watching each of the veritable shit ton of videos I watched, I made sure to like them (if I actually liked the video, which in every case I did) and write a relatively thoughtful comment. I decided in the last couple of days that even though I was very much WTF? when I first moved the channel to a brand account and all my subscriptions and playlists moved with it, that if I want to drive a few more people to my channel, I should be watching videos and commenting as my channel, so I went ahead and did that.

And it paid off. Someone else with a New Channel (60 subscribers to my 11) read one of my comments and stopped by! Woo, new subscriber! Did I say 11? I meant 12!

That was a lovely way to start my morning, I will say.

Well. The moral of this story is that even though I will not be drinking or consuming so much salsa hopefully ever again, that I did have a good night despite the overconsumption. And this turned into a very YouTube-y post. Sorry about that! I was just excited and wanted to share.

And now I have.

And I’ll film later, hopefully before it gets dark out.

I hope you’re having a great day!

And if you’re not having a great day, I hope you’re having an okay day.

And if you’re not having an okay day, I hope tomorrow is better.