I have a background on my phone reminding me not to do that.

It’s a slow process, but quitting won’t speed it up.

And so I remind myself that restarting only ever brings me back to here – the point where I want to restart again. It never gets me the fresh, perfect beginning I’m looking for.

Why am I always looking for a perfect start, anyway? Why would I want to erase all the things that have come before that have made me what I am? When I find a blog that has a decent history, it’s wonderful fun to look back at what used to be. Sometimes, it’s all pulled together and just a younger version of what’s current. Other times, it’s completely something different and you get to watch someone evolve.

So yeah. I’m not going to restart right now. I’m just going to keep plodding along and looking for the right road. It’s out there somewhere.